she took the midnight train going anywhere

a chronicle of my triumphs and trials as I move through life in my late-20s.

keep looking at my feet. my shoes? they're lanvin.

I believe strongly that unless you are ready embody the qualities you want in the partner of your dreams, you have no right expecting them from anyone else.

And that is why I feel that unless I can afford YSL by myself, I am not going to expect someone to gift me with Chanel.

Maybe I am being superficial, maybe love isn't supposed to be equal. Maybe my definition of love is warped, in your books, but it is the right one for me.

To bastardise one of my favourite quotes. What once was dreamed of is the reality of the present. And what I dream of now will become the reality of the future. I just have to remember that there is work to be done before I earn my way up.

step by step by baby step.

NowPlaying: Bae Bae - BIGBANG

so my new obsession: G-Dragon

I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS

HE IS SO CUTE OMG DEAD

I think I fell in love with Big Bang's music like falling asleep. Slowly and then all at once. Five years ago if anyone asked I could have sworn that I hated KPop. I despised anything to do with it and now that I looked at the old blog post I dedicated to ranting about those ridiculous thoughts and laugh at myself.

22 year old Dinnie must be quite appalled of my sudden obsession with G-Dragon. Honestly, I don't know how this happened. I don't know how I went from this Death Cab listening hipster girl to obsessively watching Big Bang videos (omg 9 years of material!) and putting down a deposits for Korean classes. I would fee embarrassed about developing obsessions at age 27 but who the fuck cares as long as I'm enjoying it and it's not bad for me?

I am so tired of being told what I should or shouldn't be doing. I'm so tired of trying to complete goals that were never my own, trying to impress people who never were that cool anyway. So done.

People told me that my writing will never get me anywhere, and wanting a career in social and digital marketing was a dream. I'm not at the TOP yet but I'm moving up, which is more than I can say for myself 5 years ago.

I was a bigoted, judgemental asshole who liked Ayn Rand a bit too much. I thought everyone was beneath me and I think the breaking point for me over the past year was that I encountered many people who remind me of that phase of my life and how obnoxious I found them. It was like a bulb went over my head and j was like "oh my god is this what I sounded like?"

I'm not perfect. I'm only human. I have my catty moments. I have my idiosyncrasies. All I want to do is to allow others their weaknesses, acknowledge the good fortune I've had and just live my life in a way that makes me happy.

That's all I want.

Fantastic, baby.

new semester, new productivity system

Last semester went over quickly, I am very lucky to have gotten through the semester with a majority of B's despite not having a very organised studying system.

I love being in university because every new semester is a new way to try out my productivity tools. And unlike using the system at work, any blip in the system wouldn't affect my work and easily rectified.

Here's to a new semester and fun times with psychology modules.

female seeking new job

After the debacle (that you can read about on my Facebook page), I am feeling slightly overwhelmed with the need to not get my hopes up. Look, I am someone you can always count on to get her hopes up with every new opportunity. And it feels wrong this time because whenever I think about possibly getting the job that I really really want, I keep telling myself not to start imagining myself getting it.

This is not me, and I think the debacle burnt me more than I would like to admit.

But this is not going to get me down. What's done is already done (out of no fault of my own). And I need to focus on the future.

I am like a startup, I will do whatever I need to get to where I need to be, I will pivot and come out wiser (and hopefully smarter) on the other side.

just a small town girl

Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like as a small-town girl in some country town that has like a population of 10,000. I bet I would be that brunette who loves Harry Potter far too much as a teenager and I would do something cliched like have a crush on the captain of the football team.

what brought this on? Well, I've been watching Friday Night Lights, a show about the life of a football coach. It doesn't sound like much, and I don't really know American football, but I've heard good things about it and I am really kinda in love with the show already.

Also, there's this.